I have been taking only art courses. I do not have an end game aside from the pleasure of learning and enjoying what I create. I actually have had to work through the notion that I am not wasting fuel when I go to town for class. Crazy isn't it? I have to put in check feelings that I should be accomplishing something for the family, and take a deep breath and embrace this new path I am on.
I have to remind myself it is okay to buy myself something without wondering who needs this or that first. I also have to remind myself that in this new place I can say no without guilt. I am not mom full time but mom from the side line and I need to allow each of my goofs to walk through life and learn as one becomes not because of the ease of life, but of the things that test one.
I love my children and yes, even as adults I will always think of them as my bubboos, cutie pies, sweeties, and snuggle bunnies, but I am confident in what Bill and I did as parents that they will be fine in life. Oh and fine does not mean perfect without hardships, but fine in they have a foundation and from there can build and rebuild when they need to.
I guess as I conclude this post that while I am learning to be an empty nest parent, I am not alone and my partner in crime reassures me all the time that I am first and should be. For that I am content as I embark upon this new path in earnest.
|This photo is from Gila Cliff Dwellings photo credit Double Nickel Farm|